Today I wanted to share with you how I’m feeling, what I’m doing and how my mental health is. A Life Update I guess. I feel like this year has flown by and I haven’t had a minute to sit, relax and fully enjoy the time. Even though I had over four months off this summer I still feel like I was always stressed about something. Which is one of my worst traits! I know you’re already questioning what this picture of sunflowers has to do with this post… well it has nothing I just love yellow sunflowers they’re bright and colourful and always cheer me up. So, I guess I’m saying I hope they brighten up your day!
What am I doing?
I’ve just entered my third and final year of university and made the big decision that I don’t want to follow on with my degree instead I want to change my future path completely from the course I am studying. This was a massive decision for me and I spent the majority of summer stressing over it. But, in the end it is currently the right decision for me.
I’m living with my boyfriend still in our university city which we have been doing for three years now! The independence of living away from my family I am still loving, but I love having that company and someone if I need them. I’m currently working some casual jobs here and then so that I have some sort of income but have control over what work I take on which is a massive thing for me at the minute. A lot of my attention and love is currently going into my blog and YouTube as that is something I love and want to try to make them the best that I can. I’m two weeks into university and already swamped with work and feeling the stress of it but trying not to stress about it if you get what I mean.
This is something I’ve always tried to be open about but at the minute I want to keep it private. I have been struggling more than ever which has effected day to day life for me. I really struggling with university at the minute and finding the motivation when all I really want to do is stay in bed all day everyday. As always I’m trying to keep going, keep on some on top of my university work and carry on doing what I love blogging and filming for my YouTube.
What the future holds I have no idea. But I’m hoping that I can find some balance with my mental health and get that more under control. I would also like to finish my degree, I’m ready for the sleepless nights, tears and stress that will be coming my way. I also need to make some big decisions on my future career path and what jobs I want to apply for in 6 months time!!
How is life going for you?